TIME! Aren't you supposed to heal everything?

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How the hell did he get 34.5 million views in ten days??
HOW!?!?!
That's ridiculous.


Anyway.
I'm not really in the mood to blog. But I am anyway.
Gotta vent some more.
So, now that you know that, you don't have to read this rest.
Because this is just me talking to myself, but for all to see on the internet instead of talking to someone about it.
What?
It's different.....

Uhm. Herp.

The only good thing about this week was that I got the Senior Thesis done one day early. Tells me I don't always procrastinate! Yay!

As the title foreshadows, it still hurts. Why didn't I feel this for the 10 months before Christmas? I have no idea. I'm still feeling incredibly overwhelmed with a feeling of regret and self hate.
I hate it.

Uhm I'm not really gonna go in depth, mostly because I just realized that what I'm writing about in my blog posts aren't what blogs are for.
So I'm gonna go ahead and sum up my current emotional distraught in one sentence.

Herp.

And I just want to say sorry to everyone.
For whatever. I mean it.

There ya have it.
Perhaps if I ignore this long enough it will go away?
Its worked before.....

Anyway.
Since I'm using blogs for the wrong purposes, I guess I'm gonna stop for awhile.
Or until I actually find something to blog about.
Now I'll stop with the useless blog posts now :)


Mr. Wright Quote Of The Day: "Oh my Stephen! You're looking sexy today!" *Chuckles*

Ian Quote Of The Day: "See, I had to burn down the orphanage. It was attacking me!"

You get two since I'm not blogging for awhile! :D
Tool powers activate!
Off on a spiritual adventure/journey/quest to find..something.
I don't know what right now.
Chao:)

Its been awhile.... Let's kick this pig!

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Yep. I'm propaganding (propaganda-ing?) my video again.
It needs more views!
Or more people need to tell me how terrible it is.
Either way.

Yep. As the title explains it, I haven't blogged in awhile?
Why?
I don't know.
Didn't want to, had nothing to talk about (and if I did it would have been depressing), and  yeah.
Let's just say i haven't had one good day this year yet.
I've had great moments with friends n such, but overall, this month has sucked.

Well. I haven't felt emotionally good for awhile now. Going on almost a month now, and I'm holding up. It's challenging, needless to say. The senior thesis doesn't help either. It makes it worse, actually. Worked on it today and hit a brick wall.
This isn't going to be a good week.

Or a good rest of the year.
Oh well. Time flies, hopefully it's supersonic.

Uhm, It's hard to blog about stuff when aren't emotionally all there. Its been more or less the same thing for the past month, so nothing really new. Eh, also so haven't found anything to fix it...so yep.
Anyway.
The highlight recently was that I got deleted as a friend by somebody on Facebook.
Hahaha.
This greatly amuses me.
Why?
Oh ya know, she said things like:
"I'll ask you to sadies! :D" I seriously laughed for a good ten minutes with that one.
"I love you!" ................... No ya dont.
And now I'm off of her friends list. I'm not hurt, amused, not hurt.
Mostly because I knew she was BS-ing me as soon as she said it, so it was only a matter of time before her lies came into light. Again, it was funny lolololololololololololololololol.

And that one chick (Maddie Derp, as Matt would call her), is gone. Hopefully for awhile, I don't want to see her again. So I guess that's a high point? :)
The one thing that killed me first semester is gone. Now to take care of second semester.

I figured it out.
I am inadvertently using my Blog as personal journal. Because I read all of my blogs, and read about how I was feeling back now, compared to now. It was kinda cool. Didn't find good things, but hey.

So, the moral of the story is: YOU CAN"T TRUST THE SYSTEM!
Nah,
But really. This blog post is more of a benefit for me as it is to your entertainment.
So keep your negative blog comments to yourself :)
I'm doin this for me :)

Unless the post isn't depressing.
Then its for you.
Hopefully we have one coming up.
Maybe I'll blog about something important.
Maybe....

What was my day like....
Mostly herp.
Then I was like derp.

Don't worry guys. I got this! :D
......
Hopefully?

Ian Quote Of The Day: "Do a Barrel Roll!"

I'm running out of blog titles...

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Another one of my edited videos. Its the music video for The War by Angels & Airwaves! I'd love for you to check it out!
It only took me 7 tries to upload it :)

Well. I don't know what got people started on this. But everyone's been talking about the word "love."
So, I figured I would give it a go.

The first thing I wanna say first is that "love" is probably the most overused word. And the people who use it most is probably high school girls. All preppy n such. I'm not saying this group of people are the only ones, but in my experience, they probably use it the most.
There is this one preppy freshman girl I'm friends with on Facebook (Who will remain nameless). She tosses the word "love" around like its nothing. If she likes something she automatically loves it. I remember when she starting dating this one guy, and about 2 or 3 days later, she said she loved him. I saw this and burst out laughing. For one, she's a freshman. 14? Sounds right. Who "loves" her boyfriend after 2 days of dating him. LOL. She also "loves" everybody. If you are her friend, she loves you by default. I mean she has close friends, and then there's the generic acquaintance. It really bugs me how much she claims she loves things. I don't think she gets it yet.
But here I am, judging her. Like a pro. I'm good at it too! :D

I never thought about it, but the English language totally herped when it decided it only needed one word for love. We use it so often. To describe ANYTHING we really like. Other languages have multiple words for love, we get one.
And we get to decide what we mean when we say it.
Most of the time, we use it to describe something we adore.
Such as:
"Man, I love this song!" Or "I love pizza!" I honestly don't have a problem with it. I think its obviously we don't mean it when we tell someone "I love you." This definition of love is commonplace, and most people can understand what they really mean by it. So yep. Kinda obvious the meaning for it, and we use love because saying "I really like this song" doesn't flow as well. :P

Then there's the "I love you."
Its a confusing subject.
Saying that has many different meanings as well.
As a boyfriend/girlfriend.
As a close friend.
As a friend.
As a family member.
As a mentor/teacher.
As a fellow believer in Christ.
As God told us.

I love people. The only people I tell are my parents and close friends.
And God, obviously.
And I've said it to my girlfriend several times.
But I don't know. Saying "I love you" to anyone from the following list doesnt bother me. Until they start overusing it, like stated previously.
I'm going to use another example.
There was this girl. A sophomore. We were acquaintances, from my point of view. Its not that we weren't friends, but we weren't enemies. We didn't really talk, never hung out, or anything like that. So she was just kinda there, minding our own businesses, etc. Well my birthday swung around and she posted on my wall something like this:
"Happy Birthday!:) Text me sometime!:)"
So I did. I don't usually text people often anyway, and we haven't talked in months.
So I figured why not?
The next few months, we talked on and off, like 2 days straight, then stop for a week or two. Nothing too serious or anything.
Then she started stringing together some lies. Which irritated me, just as it would anyone.
How did I know they were lies? They were obvious.
The first one was when we were talking about homecoming, and sadies and junk.
"I'll ask you to sadies!:)" Is what she said.
When she said that I literally LOL'd. It was not even homecoming yet, so Setpemeber/October,  and shes saying shes going to ask me to my school's dance, the same school that she doesn't attend. At first I was kinda happy. A date sounds fun right? I mean I've never had one to sadies before. Then I realized that she wasn't going to. She didn't say she wasn't going to, but I knew she wasn't. Before hand, we never hung out at all, and we've only been recently been talking. So I brushed it off as "boll crap."
What does this have to do with love?
Nothing. I needed to rant about it. It's not bothering me or anything, I just felt like it needed to be said.
And it also leads into love.
So. We keep talking. She was fun to talk to in all. Then one day I made a joke.
It was stupid. But it made her laugh. And she replied:
"Haha oh Ben, I love you!:)"  (Obviously, I don't remember the texts word for word. They went something like this).
HA! Boll Sh**! I'm not stupid! That was my first reaction. I mean I didn't realize you could love someone whom you've never hung out with, and have only been talking to periodically for a few months.
Tell me when I'm wrong, but I don't think love works like that.
Luckily for me, I didn't believe it.
She told me that again, sometime later. I don't know why. After that last one we stopped talking again. I didn't want to if she was going to say that. No girl has ever said that to me, besides my girlfriend. I don't think she should have.
And love is an action mostly. We never hung out. So there ya have it.
Haven't talked to her since, and sadies is in 3 weeks.
This shall be fun.

I don't really know where I was going with that.
But I guess if I had to sum it up it would be this:
Don't overuse the word "love." Only say it when you absolutely mean it. I'll work on it too.
Don't toss it around like its nothing. Its a powerful word, don't underestimate it.

Ian Quote Of The Day-
Christy: "What's spooning?"
Ian: "Want me and Ben to demonstrate? Clear the table!"
Me: ":O"

Well... herp

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Awesome video. Cool song too.
Might have already had it as Video of the Day, but that one was rushed.
For no reason at all.

Anyway....
I haven't blogged it up in awhile. Not sure why that is. I guess I was being social???
Oh yeah, that's right.
PARTY AT NATALIE'S! :D
Got to see Tebow Time crash in a fiery explosion, and stayed up til 2 talking about....
BOYS!
But na. Not boys. That would be creepy.
We had a very deep spiritual talk about dating.
While I did barrel rolls across the room. Both were very entertaining.
Everyone there (Ian, Zach, Natalie, Christine, Lauren, and Meghan) all had different views on it. And a lot of it I've never thought about. It made me think. Well, the most thinking I could do at 2 in the morning.
But I loved it.
It was the first time I actually opened up to people, or had some deep conversation with someone, in years.
And that's because I'm a guy. We don't do those kinda things.
So actually doing it with guys AND girls was pretty awesome, I think.
So here's a quick entry into my mind on dating.
I like it! :D
Well, I don't disapprove of it. There's a certain age in which you can start. Don't do it in junior high. Its a joke. It kinda depends on the person, how mature you are, and what you're doing it for. In junior high, I remember we dated for popularity. I didn't partake in it, but I did try (pathetically). Most cause it was mainstream to do it in my class. So I figured I would try. And it seemed exciting back then. So I would say anyone younger than a sophomore is too young to date. But that's just me.
While we were taking, I concluded one pro, and one con of dating.

PRO: You find out A LOT about yourself. I totally agree with that. I will admit I discovered a ton about myself when I dated a year ago. There's just so much I found out. And most of that stuff I wouldn't have found out without dating. I found out how different it was from being single. Its totally different. I think its a great life experience. It was fun, exciting, insightful, revelation-y (?) spontaneous, and a challenge.

CON: You get too emotionally attached. AMEN. I've been single for over a year now, and I am still emotionally trying to deal with it. A year! I dealt with it immaturely, but the point is, it takes a lot out of you if you break up. I can speak to that personally. I think that's the biggest con. It hurts. But I do think the relationship you have with the other person is worth it. Sounds kinda weird, but that's the best I can word it. So I guess I would rather have a relationship with someone, and deal with the break up, then not have one at all. But that's me.

Maybe this dating thing will get its own blog post.
But, just like at the party, once I got to speak, I didn't no what to say.
It would be easier to ask questions I suppose :)

Now, the car ride home was the best car ride I've had in a long time. Got to take Christine home afterwards.
It was hilarious. There wasn't a dull moment! It started before I started the car.
And there were some hipsters that gave her the "nod" in Old Town. Stupid hipsters.
Not sure what they were doing at 2 in the morning. Probably drugs.
Yeah, that's it. Drugs.

So anyway she's hilarious. There was never an awkward silence. We just kept talking.
Which was awesome. :)

Well I'm going to stop awkwardly complimenting her now.

We had a short story to read in class that we had to write in literature.
I hated my story.
It thought it was terrible. Got to read the first 4 of 10 pages, instead of the whole thing.
Turned out, the class loved it, and wanted me to read the rest.
:O
I did. And they still loved it.
For some reason.
I read their comments, and saw that Christine wanted me to write it more and put her in it.
Well, ever since we started the short stories, I've been expounding on it. So yes, I have been writing more to it. I kinda like where its going, but most of the time I rewrite everything I write. So I've got like maybe a chapter done since then. Mostly cause I write once a week.
Whatevs :)
And I'm adding more to it as we speak.
Not gonna lie.
It's gettin intense!

Ian Quote Of The Day: "Tebow, you're doing it wrong!"

Tebow Mania just got told!

I don't have a video of the day.
Mostly cause its 3 in the morning, and I don't feel like finding one
:)

Today's blog is about, you guessed it, Tim Tebow.

HA!
Sorry, had to get that out.
I'm kinda glad I never got on the band wagon.
Because I would be soooo disappointed right now.
I expected it.
Its really late so I might make my points clear very fast.

Tebow has three crap weeks, has one impressive game against the Steelers, and all the Tebow fans use that to say he is a great QB. I had a problem with that, considering the only thing he did for the previous 3 weeks was give the ball to the other team. Tebow fans freaked over the Steelers game. I could go into so much more detail, but I won't. I remember before the game, saying that Tebow still lost to Orton. In which promptly responded, "It doesn't matter that he lost!"
Uhm, yes it does! He had the chance to clinch a playoff berth, and he didn't. We needed the Raiders to lose.
He didn't even score.
So of course it matters. When you have a chance to "Win and you're in" and you don't win, of course its a big deal. Of course it matters.
But honestly, he still completed less than half of his passes against the Steelers. Less than half. I don't remember a time when he did complete more than half.
That's not good QB play. Sure he won 6 straight, but the 3 game losing streak showed us why that way of winning isn't going to work.
His whole regular season consisted of average to below average games. Most of those were below average.
He won games. But that's not solely the QB's job. Its the teams job.
I've said it a thousand times.
I still think the defense deserves more credit than Tebow should.
The defense totally made up for Tebow's lack of offense. It was just the way he won games.
I was happy we were winning. But when your QB is non existent for 95% of the game, you're going to win on flukes, NOT great QB play.
Which is what happened. Whether it be missed FG's, on side kick recoveries, or Prater kicking 59 yard FG's. It wasn't good QB play that won us those games.

So, I'm going to say this in the most humble, and respectful way possible.
I was right!
Which also makes up for all the crap I got for not being on the band wagon for 12 weeks.

Tebow is not a good QB, and those two games against the Patriots shows it.
The Patriots have the second WORST defense in the league.
And look at how many points we scored.
I'm just going to leave it at that.
And no, the defense didn't lose the game for us.
Yes they allowed 45 points, but its also Tom Freaking Brady. You're not going to stop him. A Hall of Fame QB with one of the best WR and two tight ends that could make the pro bowl. Kinda hard to stop that....
If history shows us anything, its that the best way to beat Tom Brady is to out gun him. And Tebow failed to even score. If you're going to beat Tom Brady, you better expect to beat him offensively.
And even if the defense played fantastic, only scoring 10 points isn't going to beat the Patriots. A good defensive game against the Patriots would be holding them to 21 points.
Last time I checked, the Broncos still would have lost.
The better QB wins games. And I think that's been evident the past few weeks.
Except for the Steelers. A healthy Big Ben would have won, in my opinion.
Win as a team, lose as a team.
This was a team effort (or lack thereof).
It was a tough game for the Broncos all around.
Although it doesn't help that your QB had a QBR of 9.
It also doesn't help when your defense lets them score 45 points.

So, in short, I just want to rub it back into all of you Tebow lovers faces.
No, I never hated on Tebow. Most of my comments that degraded him were jokes. And I would share them, knowing full well people knew I didn't like Tebow anyway. Playfully.
But he is my favorite Football player.
NOT my favorite quarterback.

Closing thought, I would have rather lost to the Steelers, than to be embarrassed by the Patriots.
That was dreadful.


Ian Quote Of The Day: "I feel like I'm watching World War I in football form."
(In reference to the Pats/Broncos game).

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That is easily the funniest video I've seen a long while.
Pure comedic genius! Hilarious!
Too bad he won't have to make a new one.
The Broncos' run ends tomorrow, sadly.

Anyway, today's blog post is not about Tim Tebow.
Although I wore a Tebow jersey at school today.
Everyone thought I was a converted Tebow fan.
I'm not.
My most common response was:
"Why would I have a Tebow jersey? LOLOLOLOLOLOLOL."
It was my bro's. I kinda wanted to see what reactions I would get. Instead of hate people were actually nice to me about it.
Which I appreciated.  I made it clear that I was a Tebow fan yet, once he out guns Tom Brady. Then I'll think about it.
Because two consecutive career games does not make up for three consecutive crap weeks.
And the 7 average to below average games he had before then.
We'll see next year.


Alright, nuff bout Tebow.
We started video projects this week, and although it will not be as epic as our starter project, the second one is giving us weird results.
We interviewed people in Old Town, and It kinda shocked me what we found. We asked 5 questions:
How did humanity get here?
Do humans have any purpose for being here?
Do you believe in a God?
What happens to us when we die?
And if you could join any religion, which would you chose and why?

I thought we got weird answers.
The majority of the people had really no idea how to answer them. Almost as if we asked them questions that they've never asked themselves before.
Most of the answers were "I don't know."
We interviewed 2 Catholics.
One believed in Creation, but also in evolution. (?)
The other didn't even know how we got here, but in terms of a God, she said that she believes there is "something out there." And then she said she was Catholic.
Last time I checked Catholics were theists that believed in God.
No just that "something" was out there.
But yeah, the general lack of knowledge surprised me. I thought most people would be able to answer those questions.
I guess society has swayed away from finding it a necessity to answer these tough questions.

Anyway, that was all I really had to talk about.
Our video project sequel I think is going to disappoint based on the popularity from out last one. I mean its a sequel, so it kinda had to suck by default.
I think we'll still get an A on it though.
Which, at the end of the day is what we were going for.

Ian Quote Of The Day: Mrs Hahn- "What did the United States do to assert itself as a world power in the early 1900's?"
Ian- "Teddy Freaking Roosevelt!"

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Crappy quality. But its the message that counts right?
And the message is hilarious!


But the past few days has brought me attention to a very disturbing reality and truth.
This issue has brought tension to my well being.
No.
It's not Tim Tebow.


Its about that one chick in Lord of the Rings that totally leads Aragorn on.

DUN DUN DUUUUUNNNNNNN!

It all started yesterday. We watched the Lord the of Rings trilogy consecutively non stop.
Well, Ian and I played LOTR Total War. But we watched.
When Ian brought up the fact that that one elven chick completely leads Aragorn on.
And she ends up with Faramir at the end of the trilogy.
?????????????????????*stumped face*??????????
Yep.
Although Christine seems to believe that Aragorn lead HER on. But we all know that's not true.
Why?
Oh, you know. He only had to save Middle Earth from total Orc domination.
He had too much on his mind to lead her on.
He was too busy being a complete man to do that.
She totally lead him on. If you watched the movies you would know exactly what I'm talking about.
Its totally obvious how that one chick leads Aragorn on.
And while he was being too busy defending Middle Earth from Orc hordes (No big deal), she realized Faromir was open. Moving from one guy to the next...
But Faromir was too busy being dead, and then being almost killed by his father, and then fending off a Orc horde with Aragorn.
Its like she had a line of guys she could go to if Aragorn didn't work out. Faromir was probably like plan D for her.
Freaking wow.
Tisk tisk.
She was persistent, I'll give you that. But it's still not good.
Guess chicks dig total men. Who fight Orcs and save humanity n such.
Weird.



There ya go Lauren!
A whole blog about that one chick who leads Aragorn on in the Lord of the Rings.
Hope you enjoyed it! :) haha!

Ian Quote Of The Day: "He's a total babe!"