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Holy crap.
I have a blog? Weird. It has been 4 (?) + months since my last one, life kinda got in the way.
And I had nothing to say besides depressing stuff.
Well here I am.
4 months later.
And I still have nothing but depressing stuff to talk about it.
Its been 4 months since a journal entry. And looking back, it helps me reflect on the past year.
Which sucked.
In case you hadn't figured it out, this year has been complete hell for me.
Which sucks. I had high expectations for this year, then they one by one they utterly collapsed.
The biggest one, for me, was the baseball season.
Junior year. We sucked. Sucked ass.
So, I took private coaching lessons over the off season to improve my game.
By the beginning of the season, my off season coach was really impressed by how far I had come.
I went into the season EXPECTING myself to go onto the mount and throw a no hitter every time I stepped foot onto the field.
Nothing less.
As for batting, I did so bad the previous season, I figured simply hitting ball would be an improvement. So the bar was set low.
Pitching wise, I felt super confident. I was ready to be the best player on the team.
Long story short, I injure my arm the third practice of the season. Not quite sure what happened, either a sprain or a strain, but pretty much it felt like my elbow was broken every time I threw the ball. Throwing a ball is kinda key if you want to pitch.
So I was out for a week. Couldn't do anything.
Injury didn't heal, I was out for another week. And for high school baseball, that's about 25% of the season right there. Senior year, folks, and I'm hurt.
And because of that, every other aspect of my game (fielding and hitting) went in the tubes.
So now my confidence level is an all time low, in during one of the toughest parts of the year.
At this point, I said "screw it, I'm throwing whether my arm hurts or not." So I pitched through the injury, and I sucked. Bad. Not being able to practice for 3 weeks really doesn't help.
That's some of what went on during the 4 months I was gone. :)
Now I don't know what to put. Part of me just wants to write out everything that's on my mind.
But then I realize that I haven't told anyone anything.
Perhaps I'll write EVERYTHING that's on my mind and save it as a draft, for future reference.
"Change left me alone,
I cannot remember when we lost control,
Now I have no one to save me from myself,
I'm so tired won't you take me, away?"
Away- Talisker Skye.
That song kept me up til 3 in the morning last night.
"Change left me alone."
I hate my life.
Well,
I mean I don't hate my life as much as I hate how I'm living my life.
I have the average American life, enough food, water, clothes, entertainment. I'm blessed. I just hate where my life is going.
In essence, I'm not exactly the biggest fan of myself.
Or what I'm doing.
Worst part is?
I have no motivation to change.
I'm just sitting here.
"I slowly die as the world goes by,"
"Change left me alone."
Ian Quote of the Day- "Have I mentioned how straight I am?"
Saturday, June 16, 2012
Saturday, February 18, 2012
My Opinion Wins
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Never saw that trailer before! I thought it was really cool.
Wish I'd seen it earlier...
Well now for the topic at hand.
I JUST FOUND THE MEANING OF LIFE.
Well...
Not really.
Just the meaning of a blog.
After all this time I never even bothered to look it up.
So I did today.
:O
Well.
I do some of that.
I have links to other Web sites!
And I also give insight into my far superior opinion to you people.
And as of last week I gave you one of my very own experiences.
So that was new.
Chronicle.
Cowboys and Aliens.
Two movies I saw in the past two days.
Now I shall give you my opinion on them!
YAY! :D
Chronicle:
So pretty much, this is the story about a loner teenager with a crap life and all that junk. He buys a video camera to capture his life on camera. He has a terminally ill mom and an abusive alcoholic father. Pretty much the laughing stock of the school, no friends, and only hangs out with his cousin Matt. His name is Andrew. There is this huge hipster party at some barn in the middle of nowhere, and after getting ridiculed, he goes outside and sits by a tree. Then Matt's friend Steve, (who is also black. This is very important) comes up to him and asks for his camera, because he and Matt had found an underground tunnel that was making strange noises. The three of them go inside this tunnel, and find this glowing object, and it begins messing with Andrew's camera.
Yep.
You guess it.
It was aliens. They touch the object, and they gain powers that defy every known natural law. They can fly, move objects, that sorta thing.
So pretty much they are ninja Jedi.
*****SPOILER ALERT******
Steve is the first one to die.
Because he is black.
Andrew becomes obsessed over his powers, and becomes more powerful than Matt and Steve.
So pretty much, the last 20 or so minutes is the fight between Anakin and Obi-Wan in Revenge of the Sith.
Andrew (Anakin) is becoming power hungry, and starts using his powers for evil. Matt (Obi-Wan) comes in and the two have a pretty sick fight scene.
I would give this movie a 7/10.
The acting and effects were pretty sweet, and had a pretty good plot.
I couldn't help but think of Anakin vs. Obi-Wan during their fight at the end, but maybe that's because I watched that on YouTube before I went to the movie.
Solid. Film.
I would recommend it.
Cowboys and Aliens:
Jake wakes up in the middle of the desert, bleeding, dazed, confused, and with something on his wrist.
Yep.
You guessed it.
So Jake and Harrison Ford ride off to kill the aliens. They find their hide out, and with the help of Indians, bandits, and some alien chick (???) they fight the aliens while Jake and the alien chick try to destroy the space ship.
They win. All is well.
1) Gets captured by aliens.
2) Watches his wife die as the aliens operate on her.
3) As the aliens try to operate on him, he takes their cutting tool, slashes the alien in the face, steals his weapon, gets stabbed, and sneaks off of the alien ship.
4) He kills like 5 guys for no reason.
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Never saw that trailer before! I thought it was really cool.
Wish I'd seen it earlier...
Well now for the topic at hand.
I JUST FOUND THE MEANING OF LIFE.
Well...
Not really.
Just the meaning of a blog.
After all this time I never even bothered to look it up.
So I did today.
noun
1.
a Web site containing the writer's or group of writers' own experiences, observations, opinions, etc., and often having images and links to other Web sites.
verb (used without object)
2.
to maintain or add new entries to a blog.
:O
Well.
I do some of that.
I have links to other Web sites!
And I also give insight into my far superior opinion to you people.
And as of last week I gave you one of my very own experiences.
So that was new.
Chronicle.
Cowboys and Aliens.
Two movies I saw in the past two days.
Now I shall give you my opinion on them!
YAY! :D
Chronicle:
So pretty much, this is the story about a loner teenager with a crap life and all that junk. He buys a video camera to capture his life on camera. He has a terminally ill mom and an abusive alcoholic father. Pretty much the laughing stock of the school, no friends, and only hangs out with his cousin Matt. His name is Andrew. There is this huge hipster party at some barn in the middle of nowhere, and after getting ridiculed, he goes outside and sits by a tree. Then Matt's friend Steve, (who is also black. This is very important) comes up to him and asks for his camera, because he and Matt had found an underground tunnel that was making strange noises. The three of them go inside this tunnel, and find this glowing object, and it begins messing with Andrew's camera.
Yep.
You guess it.
It was aliens. They touch the object, and they gain powers that defy every known natural law. They can fly, move objects, that sorta thing.
So pretty much they are ninja Jedi.
*****SPOILER ALERT******
Steve is the first one to die.
Because he is black.
Andrew becomes obsessed over his powers, and becomes more powerful than Matt and Steve.
So pretty much, the last 20 or so minutes is the fight between Anakin and Obi-Wan in Revenge of the Sith.
Andrew (Anakin) is becoming power hungry, and starts using his powers for evil. Matt (Obi-Wan) comes in and the two have a pretty sick fight scene.
I would give this movie a 7/10.
The acting and effects were pretty sweet, and had a pretty good plot.
I couldn't help but think of Anakin vs. Obi-Wan during their fight at the end, but maybe that's because I watched that on YouTube before I went to the movie.
Solid. Film.
I would recommend it.
Cowboys and Aliens:
Jake wakes up in the middle of the desert, bleeding, dazed, confused, and with something on his wrist.
Yep.
You guessed it.
Anyway, the aliens come and raid a town, snatching up civilians and blowing stuff up.
The logical thing to do.So Jake and Harrison Ford ride off to kill the aliens. They find their hide out, and with the help of Indians, bandits, and some alien chick (???) they fight the aliens while Jake and the alien chick try to destroy the space ship.
They win. All is well.
And you get the cliche Western movie ending.
It's great.
There's only thing I'm going to say about this movie.
Daniel Craig is a complete man in this movie. In order he:1) Gets captured by aliens.
2) Watches his wife die as the aliens operate on her.
3) As the aliens try to operate on him, he takes their cutting tool, slashes the alien in the face, steals his weapon, gets stabbed, and sneaks off of the alien ship.
4) He kills like 5 guys for no reason.
He's pretty boss.
I'll give this one a solid 7/10 as well.
I would also recommend it.
Mrs. Hahn: "Germany had great pride when their captured Paris in WWII, it was the epitome of culture, art..."
Ian Quote Of The Day: "And defeat."Friday, February 10, 2012
Homosexuality. A Real Conversation Over The Issue
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Life was just explained right there.
Amazing.
Actually found something to blog about today.
And as the title implies, I still don't know what just happened.
Here's a little back story.
Last week Thursday, I get a random text message from a girl I've never met before.
Her name is Jesse.
Apparently one of my friends gave her my number, so she decided to text me (Still trying to figure out who...)
For kicks and giggles.
Well she turns out to be completely awesome.
She was funny, fun to talk to, pretty chill, and goes to UNC.
So all is well. We talk almost every day since last Thursday, n such.
About fun stuffs.
Then tonight got a little weird.
We started about religious things, since I go to a Christian School. She's a Christian (?) from what I could tell, just real subtle about it. She didn't go to church, didn't actively express her faith. Which isn't bad, some may disagree but I viewed myself sorta the same way.
So I was chill about it.
Then we got onto the topic of gay marriage/rights.
She gave her opinion on it:
"I think everyone deserves someone that they can love, no matter the gender."
I knew she was gonna say something of that ilk, I was more expecting the phrase: "they have a right" which I was kinda prepared to talk about. But she made a vague, generic comment that I agree with.
So I give my opinion on it:
"I think homosexuality is a sin, I don't support gay rights. And I do not think its natural (I.E species in nature don't generally tend to try and mate with the same gender)." I didn't mean the last part to be discriminatory at ALL. I just meant that in nature we don't see animals be homosexual normally.
Could I have left that out? Yes, I wish I did. My thoughts overran my thumbs while typing the text.
****DISCLAIMER****
I have since been proven wrong with the above statement. Apparently, there are 1,500 species that are have homosexual individuals. Not sure why, it sparked my curiosity.
Time for research! Gotta figure out why...
But I'm just going to make a statement: Just because it's present in nature, does not make it right.
******
I also included that I viewed homosexuality as a choice.
And then she told me she was gay.
Total curveball. Got offended on the natural, and the choice part of my opinion, I don't blame her. I wish I worded it differently from what I did.
Or maybe that thought is something I only think....
Anyway.
She exploded. Called me out, cussed me out, and was generically pissed off at me.
She yelled at me for four ideas that she had.
1) She was born gay.
2) She said that I said she was going to hell (which I didn't).
3) God loves me just as much as he loves you.
4) I am no different or any less of a person than you.
That threw me off. All I said was that homosexuality was a sin, and she fires back with those.
And I told her that "we are all sinners, I never condemned you at all, and of course God loves you. I never said anything otherwise."
So I tell her that and she responds, again, with crazy ideas that had nothing to do with what I said.
1) You are just like all the other gay haters (paraphrased).
2) You have no right to judge me.
3) You are a hypocrite.
So she starts stereotyping me with all of the other violent people who don't support gay rights.
And trust me, the only bad thing I said was that homosexuality was a sin. And she completely takes the conversation off road, and makes me the bad guy.
I reply by saying, "I'm not judging you, I'm not condemning you, I'm not sending you to hell. God still loves you, I never said he didn't. I never said you are second rate to me or that I am better than you in any way, shape, or form. We're all human. We all sin. I know I don't have the right to judge you."
Her response?
1) It's not a choice.
2) Me and my friends all support gay rights, so you can't just say we are wrong.
3) I'm a close minded prick.
Yes. I too am trying to figure out why she kept trying to change the subject, and make me the back guy. She back tracked and said things that had nothing to do with what I said.
So I reply by saying, "Wait, so because you and your friends support, therefore its (homosexuality) right and I'm wrong? You asked for my opinion, I gave it. If you want to hate me for it, go ahead. I'm not discriminating you at all."
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Wondering why I'm giving you her quotes in bullet form, but mine aren't?
So am I.
For the sake of the pattern, I'm going to continue.
But I am 100% honest with those bullet points, I'm not trying to make myself seem better or anything.
That's how she said it, but she worded it. A lot.
***************
Ok.
So I'm trying to be straight ( no pun intended) with her, and she gives me sorta round about, sketch responses, aimed to attack me.
And she responds like this:
1) Yes, me and my friends are right. (Pretty much, "me and my friends support gay rights, therefore its right. Logical fallacy FTW!)
2) I'm right, you're wrong.
3) You are discriminating/judging me, you just won't admit it. If you weren't judging, you wouldn't care if I was gay or not.
I said "that's a total logical fallacy, I don't follow your logic. Ok then we have two different definitions for those words. Based on yours, then I judge/discriminate EVERY single person that I meet."
So I wanna give my definitions of judging and discrimination.
Judging: The act of looking at someone, and feeling a sense of superiority or of better worth.
Discrimination: The act of intentionally bringing people down, sometimes violently, and treating them worse than people of other ethnic groups.
I judged her. But I did it mentally, I don't feel that ANYTHING I said indicated that.
Yes, I hate that I do that. I'm struggling to try and stop, I'm working on it.
So.
With that being said, I kinda felt I was handling the conversation well.
But who knows, I'm probably doing it wrong.
So, as a response I get this:
1) You don't want to understand us.
2) You are an ignorant prick.
3) I take pride in being gay***
***That confused me.
I left it out, but early in the conversation, she said something I feel is contradictory.
She said, direct quotes, "I would never choose to be gay."
And later she tells me, in quotes, "I've been gay my whole f****** life, and I would never want to change that."
?
So, pretty much, "I would never want to be gay, but since I am, I don't want to change."
I was gonna point this out to her, but at this point she is obviously pissed off at me, and probably not my friend anymore. So I kept it to myself, pondering it.
And at this point, I'm completely confused.
So, I try and get back the main point, because she has a distorted view on my opinion on homosexuality.
So I said, "There's a ton of things I will never understand. And honestly, being snapped at and yelled at isn't going to make me want to. I think its a sin. That's my view. I don't hate you or homosexuals."
Her response actually followed what I said.
She asked, "if you really believe in God, how can you say love is a sin?"
My first thought was that she has a flawed view on love/homosexuality/what God says about love and what I said. I never said love is a sin. I said homosexuality was. They are different.
So I replied to her, saying "I believe that the Bible clearly states that homosexuality is a sin, and I can give you verses to back me up."
What she said back:
1) HA!
2) I do know the Bible. It says nothing about homosexuality.
3) You're a f***** hypocrite for saying that.
That pretty much confirmed it for me. She had a flawed basic understanding of the Bible, and what it teaches. Saying it does not talk about homosexuality is completely false. I found tons of verses talking about it, all classifying it as a sin.
1 Corinthians 6: 9-10
Leviticus 18: 22
Leviticus 20: 13
Just to name a few.
So I told her that she didn't actually study the Bible if she says that it does not talk about homosexuality. And I said that the idea that homosexuality is a sin, is completely Biblical.
The conversation goes on, and she tries to conclude her thoughts.
1) I don't care what you think, you're too close minded and ignorant.
2) It's not a choice, and its a not a sin. God made me this way for a reason.
3) Its funny to me how much of a hypocrite you are.
So I asked how I was being ignorant, and a hypocrite, and said that she was as close minded on my views as I was on hers (I was getting kinda irritated) and that every living soul on this Earth is a hypocrite.
And then she goes on to try and guilt trip me by saying things like:
"You don't understand. You have no idea what it's like. You have no idea what I've been through. Shut up, you're just trying to force your opinion down my throat, over something that doesn't concern you."
I never heard back from her.
That was my first real conversation/argument with someone over the gay rights issue.
Maybe someone from the outside of this can get an unbiased view on this conversation, cause I'm still confused over it.
The biggest thing I noticed was her fundamental distorted views on the Christian faith, what the Bible says, what God says, and what I said.
Simply put, the Bible claims that homosexuality is a sin. There's no way around that. She claimed it didn't. It does.
She stereotyped me. She instantly categorized me with all the other gay haters. And then she treated me as such. Refuting things I never said, then attacking me towards the end.
Its sad. I couldn't converse with her from all the crap she had gotten from other people. Which bugs me. Because then she views people who don't support gay rights negatively.
I'm going to give a brief summary of my view on gay rights/marriage.
First off, its a sin. That is Biblical. And I will treat it as such.
Love the person, hate the sin.
I tried to give that vibe to Jesse, but she never got it.
And I see marriage as the permanent union of one man and one woman, as ordered and given to us by God. I think that gay marriage violates that. Marriage is a sacred union of a man and a women, not a man and man, and not a woman and a woman.
I do not think that we as humans have any right to change what God has given to us.
That's my view on it. I in no way support gay rights.
To me, its just as bad as any other sin.
I kinda want to touch base with some of the things she said to defend her position.
"It's not a choice, God made me this way."
This is tricky. I never really believed that you were born gay. That never made sense to me.
Evolutionary speaking, how does that work? If the norm is to mate with the opposite sex, what does mating with the same sex imply? That would mean that something in your brain is making you think that way. Genetic makeup? Science has not found a "gay gene", so I don't think that's it. But maybe its a rearrangement of nucleiotide base pairs that is causing that. The random mutation that also supposedly drives evolution. Assuming that's all true, natural selection would have acted on it already, so I don't think its a gene, or anything wrong with the genetic makeup of your DNA. So I don't think you're born gay.
There have been concrete scientific studies that show some sort of childhood experience will lead to it.
Which says to me most people aren't born gay, something dramatic happened in their early stages of their development that could have caused that.
This study also showed the percentages of people who changed sexual orientation, whether from gay to straight or vice versa. So I think its a choice to be gay.
I also view that she used this as an excuse. "Well, God made me this way, so it must be OK."
So can murderers say that now? "I was born a murderer! God made me this way!"
No. We are all sinners. Saying God made you gay is the same as saying God me a rapist, therefore rape is OK.
It doens't work like that! If that was a legit excuse, people could get away with anything. It always bugged me when she said that. I was very tempted to ask if it was OK to kill people if I said I was born a murderer.
And EVEN IF the above statement was true, that doesn't make it right.
Its late.
I've been writing for an hour now.
I just wanted to say that the conversation was very interesting, made me think.
It challenged me. And although she felt like I was degrading her, I wasn't.
I'm just upset I lost a friend over it....
Quote: "Whatever doesn't kill you will only make you stronger."
Ian Quote Of The Day: "Not unless it paralyzes you from the neck down."
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Life was just explained right there.
Amazing.
Actually found something to blog about today.
And as the title implies, I still don't know what just happened.
Here's a little back story.
Last week Thursday, I get a random text message from a girl I've never met before.
Her name is Jesse.
Apparently one of my friends gave her my number, so she decided to text me (Still trying to figure out who...)
For kicks and giggles.
Well she turns out to be completely awesome.
She was funny, fun to talk to, pretty chill, and goes to UNC.
So all is well. We talk almost every day since last Thursday, n such.
About fun stuffs.
Then tonight got a little weird.
We started about religious things, since I go to a Christian School. She's a Christian (?) from what I could tell, just real subtle about it. She didn't go to church, didn't actively express her faith. Which isn't bad, some may disagree but I viewed myself sorta the same way.
So I was chill about it.
Then we got onto the topic of gay marriage/rights.
She gave her opinion on it:
"I think everyone deserves someone that they can love, no matter the gender."
I knew she was gonna say something of that ilk, I was more expecting the phrase: "they have a right" which I was kinda prepared to talk about. But she made a vague, generic comment that I agree with.
So I give my opinion on it:
"I think homosexuality is a sin, I don't support gay rights. And I do not think its natural (I.E species in nature don't generally tend to try and mate with the same gender)." I didn't mean the last part to be discriminatory at ALL. I just meant that in nature we don't see animals be homosexual normally.
Could I have left that out? Yes, I wish I did. My thoughts overran my thumbs while typing the text.
****DISCLAIMER****
I have since been proven wrong with the above statement. Apparently, there are 1,500 species that are have homosexual individuals. Not sure why, it sparked my curiosity.
Time for research! Gotta figure out why...
But I'm just going to make a statement: Just because it's present in nature, does not make it right.
******
I also included that I viewed homosexuality as a choice.
And then she told me she was gay.
Total curveball. Got offended on the natural, and the choice part of my opinion, I don't blame her. I wish I worded it differently from what I did.
Or maybe that thought is something I only think....
Anyway.
She exploded. Called me out, cussed me out, and was generically pissed off at me.
She yelled at me for four ideas that she had.
1) She was born gay.
2) She said that I said she was going to hell (which I didn't).
3) God loves me just as much as he loves you.
4) I am no different or any less of a person than you.
That threw me off. All I said was that homosexuality was a sin, and she fires back with those.
And I told her that "we are all sinners, I never condemned you at all, and of course God loves you. I never said anything otherwise."
So I tell her that and she responds, again, with crazy ideas that had nothing to do with what I said.
1) You are just like all the other gay haters (paraphrased).
2) You have no right to judge me.
3) You are a hypocrite.
So she starts stereotyping me with all of the other violent people who don't support gay rights.
And trust me, the only bad thing I said was that homosexuality was a sin. And she completely takes the conversation off road, and makes me the bad guy.
I reply by saying, "I'm not judging you, I'm not condemning you, I'm not sending you to hell. God still loves you, I never said he didn't. I never said you are second rate to me or that I am better than you in any way, shape, or form. We're all human. We all sin. I know I don't have the right to judge you."
Her response?
1) It's not a choice.
2) Me and my friends all support gay rights, so you can't just say we are wrong.
3) I'm a close minded prick.
Yes. I too am trying to figure out why she kept trying to change the subject, and make me the back guy. She back tracked and said things that had nothing to do with what I said.
So I reply by saying, "Wait, so because you and your friends support, therefore its (homosexuality) right and I'm wrong? You asked for my opinion, I gave it. If you want to hate me for it, go ahead. I'm not discriminating you at all."
***************
Wondering why I'm giving you her quotes in bullet form, but mine aren't?
So am I.
For the sake of the pattern, I'm going to continue.
But I am 100% honest with those bullet points, I'm not trying to make myself seem better or anything.
That's how she said it, but she worded it. A lot.
***************
Ok.
So I'm trying to be straight ( no pun intended) with her, and she gives me sorta round about, sketch responses, aimed to attack me.
And she responds like this:
1) Yes, me and my friends are right. (Pretty much, "me and my friends support gay rights, therefore its right. Logical fallacy FTW!)
2) I'm right, you're wrong.
3) You are discriminating/judging me, you just won't admit it. If you weren't judging, you wouldn't care if I was gay or not.
I said "that's a total logical fallacy, I don't follow your logic. Ok then we have two different definitions for those words. Based on yours, then I judge/discriminate EVERY single person that I meet."
So I wanna give my definitions of judging and discrimination.
Judging: The act of looking at someone, and feeling a sense of superiority or of better worth.
Discrimination: The act of intentionally bringing people down, sometimes violently, and treating them worse than people of other ethnic groups.
I judged her. But I did it mentally, I don't feel that ANYTHING I said indicated that.
Yes, I hate that I do that. I'm struggling to try and stop, I'm working on it.
So.
With that being said, I kinda felt I was handling the conversation well.
But who knows, I'm probably doing it wrong.
So, as a response I get this:
1) You don't want to understand us.
2) You are an ignorant prick.
3) I take pride in being gay***
***That confused me.
I left it out, but early in the conversation, she said something I feel is contradictory.
She said, direct quotes, "I would never choose to be gay."
And later she tells me, in quotes, "I've been gay my whole f****** life, and I would never want to change that."
?
So, pretty much, "I would never want to be gay, but since I am, I don't want to change."
I was gonna point this out to her, but at this point she is obviously pissed off at me, and probably not my friend anymore. So I kept it to myself, pondering it.
And at this point, I'm completely confused.
So, I try and get back the main point, because she has a distorted view on my opinion on homosexuality.
So I said, "There's a ton of things I will never understand. And honestly, being snapped at and yelled at isn't going to make me want to. I think its a sin. That's my view. I don't hate you or homosexuals."
Her response actually followed what I said.
She asked, "if you really believe in God, how can you say love is a sin?"
My first thought was that she has a flawed view on love/homosexuality/what God says about love and what I said. I never said love is a sin. I said homosexuality was. They are different.
So I replied to her, saying "I believe that the Bible clearly states that homosexuality is a sin, and I can give you verses to back me up."
What she said back:
1) HA!
2) I do know the Bible. It says nothing about homosexuality.
3) You're a f***** hypocrite for saying that.
That pretty much confirmed it for me. She had a flawed basic understanding of the Bible, and what it teaches. Saying it does not talk about homosexuality is completely false. I found tons of verses talking about it, all classifying it as a sin.
1 Corinthians 6: 9-10
Leviticus 18: 22
Leviticus 20: 13
Just to name a few.
So I told her that she didn't actually study the Bible if she says that it does not talk about homosexuality. And I said that the idea that homosexuality is a sin, is completely Biblical.
The conversation goes on, and she tries to conclude her thoughts.
1) I don't care what you think, you're too close minded and ignorant.
2) It's not a choice, and its a not a sin. God made me this way for a reason.
3) Its funny to me how much of a hypocrite you are.
So I asked how I was being ignorant, and a hypocrite, and said that she was as close minded on my views as I was on hers (I was getting kinda irritated) and that every living soul on this Earth is a hypocrite.
And then she goes on to try and guilt trip me by saying things like:
"You don't understand. You have no idea what it's like. You have no idea what I've been through. Shut up, you're just trying to force your opinion down my throat, over something that doesn't concern you."
I never heard back from her.
That was my first real conversation/argument with someone over the gay rights issue.
Maybe someone from the outside of this can get an unbiased view on this conversation, cause I'm still confused over it.
The biggest thing I noticed was her fundamental distorted views on the Christian faith, what the Bible says, what God says, and what I said.
Simply put, the Bible claims that homosexuality is a sin. There's no way around that. She claimed it didn't. It does.
She stereotyped me. She instantly categorized me with all the other gay haters. And then she treated me as such. Refuting things I never said, then attacking me towards the end.
Its sad. I couldn't converse with her from all the crap she had gotten from other people. Which bugs me. Because then she views people who don't support gay rights negatively.
I'm going to give a brief summary of my view on gay rights/marriage.
First off, its a sin. That is Biblical. And I will treat it as such.
Love the person, hate the sin.
I tried to give that vibe to Jesse, but she never got it.
And I see marriage as the permanent union of one man and one woman, as ordered and given to us by God. I think that gay marriage violates that. Marriage is a sacred union of a man and a women, not a man and man, and not a woman and a woman.
I do not think that we as humans have any right to change what God has given to us.
That's my view on it. I in no way support gay rights.
To me, its just as bad as any other sin.
I kinda want to touch base with some of the things she said to defend her position.
"It's not a choice, God made me this way."
This is tricky. I never really believed that you were born gay. That never made sense to me.
Evolutionary speaking, how does that work? If the norm is to mate with the opposite sex, what does mating with the same sex imply? That would mean that something in your brain is making you think that way. Genetic makeup? Science has not found a "gay gene", so I don't think that's it. But maybe its a rearrangement of nucleiotide base pairs that is causing that. The random mutation that also supposedly drives evolution. Assuming that's all true, natural selection would have acted on it already, so I don't think its a gene, or anything wrong with the genetic makeup of your DNA. So I don't think you're born gay.
There have been concrete scientific studies that show some sort of childhood experience will lead to it.
Which says to me most people aren't born gay, something dramatic happened in their early stages of their development that could have caused that.
This study also showed the percentages of people who changed sexual orientation, whether from gay to straight or vice versa. So I think its a choice to be gay.
I also view that she used this as an excuse. "Well, God made me this way, so it must be OK."
So can murderers say that now? "I was born a murderer! God made me this way!"
No. We are all sinners. Saying God made you gay is the same as saying God me a rapist, therefore rape is OK.
It doens't work like that! If that was a legit excuse, people could get away with anything. It always bugged me when she said that. I was very tempted to ask if it was OK to kill people if I said I was born a murderer.
And EVEN IF the above statement was true, that doesn't make it right.
Its late.
I've been writing for an hour now.
I just wanted to say that the conversation was very interesting, made me think.
It challenged me. And although she felt like I was degrading her, I wasn't.
I'm just upset I lost a friend over it....
Quote: "Whatever doesn't kill you will only make you stronger."
Ian Quote Of The Day: "Not unless it paralyzes you from the neck down."
Friday, February 3, 2012
I'M BACK!!! :D (Unfortunately)
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HELLO!
Iz me! I am back!
And I am proud to say January is over!! :D
Yes! Finally had my first good day of the year. It only took me a month.
NBD
Which is strange. I had my first good day just about the same time we turned in our Senior Thesis.
Coincidence?
I think SO!
Well, its February, and you know what that means!
YEP!
Cheesy, annoying, over played Valentine's Day commercials! And all of the scenarios probably will never happen to anyone, they just spend a lot of time trying to get that "perfect" moment.
Which varies from person to person.
But they try to get the generic "perfect" moment.
In response all the girls are all like "AWWWWWWW :) :) :) :) :)"
And all the guys be like: "I hope I don't have to do that...."
Which is the total guy thing to say.
I find myself saying the exact same thing. However, I'm not having a Valentine this year so I don'ts got to worryz :)
Exactly like this Meme.
Forever Alone :)
Which brings me to my blog.
I strangely have something to write about.
Well I think so.
Its such a broad generic topic in my head right now, not sure how I'm gonna expand.
But since its February, and Valentine's Day, I'm going to talk about that.
Mushy lovey chocolately stuff.
I'm scared that I'm thinking these thoughts :O
So I would go ahead and stop reading right now.
Herp.
I don't know where my thoughts are going right now.
Derp!
I seem to be in a mental relapse. Maybe its because I'm writing about Valentine's Day? When I could be writing about important things.
Like explosions.
Or Tebow.
So here we go.
Valentine's Day is either one of the best holidays of the year, or one of the worst.
Depending on one's relationship status according to Facebook.
It's usually fantastic for couples. For obvious reasons.
And its terrible for singles *GENERICALLY*
I mean, it kinda depends on your situation.
For me, personally, I don't care. I dont care if I don't have a "special someone" on Valentine's Day, so I just see it as a time of the year with lots of chocolate, and an excessive amounts of pink and guys sucking up. Sure, its gonna be weird seeing everybody else be with someone they love, but I think I'll live.
Other people hate it.
Because it brings back painful memories, they get jealous, or they feel alone.
Get to also see the word "love" completely overused.
Everybody is going to love everyone.
If you read my earlier blog, you kinda get my opinion on the word.
So, I'm not looking forward to seeing "love" used by everyone. I think its taken for granted.
Its going to bug me when all the silly freshmen/preps/immature kids go on a love rampage.
I bet you someone will say "I love you" to someone on Valentine's Day, even though they've only been dating a few days.
I'm just gonna call it now.
Still bearing with me?
Good.
Because I think I lost myself about 10 minutes ago.
Valentine's Day is pretty much the day when guys either herp or score brownie points.
That's essentially the whole point.
So uhm, I've 18 straight years without a Valentine.
So I think I'll live without one this year :)
Oh.
And I'm doing better. :)
Thanks for being concerned!
And if you weren't,
Then just ignore that.
But not good. I seem to like picking out all of the little things I've failed at. So that brings me down.
I've decided to blog only when I have something to talk about.
So less about my low self-esteem, and more about subjects people want to know about.
Which doesn't include my mental life :)
"People are people no matter how small."
Ian Quote Of The Day: "Doesn't make them equal!"
Song of the Day:
"Apology"- Safeysuit
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HELLO!
Iz me! I am back!
And I am proud to say January is over!! :D
Yes! Finally had my first good day of the year. It only took me a month.
NBD
Which is strange. I had my first good day just about the same time we turned in our Senior Thesis.
Coincidence?
I think SO!
Well, its February, and you know what that means!
YEP!
Cheesy, annoying, over played Valentine's Day commercials! And all of the scenarios probably will never happen to anyone, they just spend a lot of time trying to get that "perfect" moment.
Which varies from person to person.
But they try to get the generic "perfect" moment.
In response all the girls are all like "AWWWWWWW :) :) :) :) :)"
And all the guys be like: "I hope I don't have to do that...."
Which is the total guy thing to say.
I find myself saying the exact same thing. However, I'm not having a Valentine this year so I don'ts got to worryz :)
Exactly like this Meme.
Forever Alone :)
Which brings me to my blog.
I strangely have something to write about.
Well I think so.
Its such a broad generic topic in my head right now, not sure how I'm gonna expand.
But since its February, and Valentine's Day, I'm going to talk about that.
Mushy lovey chocolately stuff.
I'm scared that I'm thinking these thoughts :O
So I would go ahead and stop reading right now.
Herp.
I don't know where my thoughts are going right now.
Derp!
I seem to be in a mental relapse. Maybe its because I'm writing about Valentine's Day? When I could be writing about important things.
Like explosions.
Or Tebow.
So here we go.
Valentine's Day is either one of the best holidays of the year, or one of the worst.
Depending on one's relationship status according to Facebook.
It's usually fantastic for couples. For obvious reasons.
And its terrible for singles *GENERICALLY*
I mean, it kinda depends on your situation.
For me, personally, I don't care. I dont care if I don't have a "special someone" on Valentine's Day, so I just see it as a time of the year with lots of chocolate, and an excessive amounts of pink and guys sucking up. Sure, its gonna be weird seeing everybody else be with someone they love, but I think I'll live.
Other people hate it.
Because it brings back painful memories, they get jealous, or they feel alone.
Get to also see the word "love" completely overused.
Everybody is going to love everyone.
If you read my earlier blog, you kinda get my opinion on the word.
So, I'm not looking forward to seeing "love" used by everyone. I think its taken for granted.
Its going to bug me when all the silly freshmen/preps/immature kids go on a love rampage.
I bet you someone will say "I love you" to someone on Valentine's Day, even though they've only been dating a few days.
I'm just gonna call it now.
Still bearing with me?
Good.
Because I think I lost myself about 10 minutes ago.
Valentine's Day is pretty much the day when guys either herp or score brownie points.
That's essentially the whole point.
So uhm, I've 18 straight years without a Valentine.
So I think I'll live without one this year :)
Oh.
And I'm doing better. :)
Thanks for being concerned!
And if you weren't,
Then just ignore that.
But not good. I seem to like picking out all of the little things I've failed at. So that brings me down.
I've decided to blog only when I have something to talk about.
So less about my low self-esteem, and more about subjects people want to know about.
Which doesn't include my mental life :)
"People are people no matter how small."
Ian Quote Of The Day: "Doesn't make them equal!"
Song of the Day:
"Apology"- Safeysuit
Wednesday, January 25, 2012
TIME! Aren't you supposed to heal everything?
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How the hell did he get 34.5 million views in ten days??
HOW!?!?!
That's ridiculous.
Anyway.
I'm not really in the mood to blog. But I am anyway.
Gotta vent some more.
So, now that you know that, you don't have to read this rest.
Because this is just me talking to myself, but for all to see on the internet instead of talking to someone about it.
What?
It's different.....
Uhm. Herp.
The only good thing about this week was that I got the Senior Thesis done one day early. Tells me I don't always procrastinate! Yay!
As the title foreshadows, it still hurts. Why didn't I feel this for the 10 months before Christmas? I have no idea. I'm still feeling incredibly overwhelmed with a feeling of regret and self hate.
I hate it.
Uhm I'm not really gonna go in depth, mostly because I just realized that what I'm writing about in my blog posts aren't what blogs are for.
So I'm gonna go ahead and sum up my current emotional distraught in one sentence.
Herp.
And I just want to say sorry to everyone.
For whatever. I mean it.
There ya have it.
Perhaps if I ignore this long enough it will go away?
Its worked before.....
Anyway.
Since I'm using blogs for the wrong purposes, I guess I'm gonna stop for awhile.
Or until I actually find something to blog about.
Now I'll stop with the useless blog posts now :)
Mr. Wright Quote Of The Day: "Oh my Stephen! You're looking sexy today!" *Chuckles*
Ian Quote Of The Day: "See, I had to burn down the orphanage. It was attacking me!"
You get two since I'm not blogging for awhile! :D
Tool powers activate!
Off on a spiritual adventure/journey/quest to find..something.
I don't know what right now.
Chao:)
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How the hell did he get 34.5 million views in ten days??
HOW!?!?!
That's ridiculous.
Anyway.
I'm not really in the mood to blog. But I am anyway.
Gotta vent some more.
So, now that you know that, you don't have to read this rest.
Because this is just me talking to myself, but for all to see on the internet instead of talking to someone about it.
What?
It's different.....
Uhm. Herp.
The only good thing about this week was that I got the Senior Thesis done one day early. Tells me I don't always procrastinate! Yay!
As the title foreshadows, it still hurts. Why didn't I feel this for the 10 months before Christmas? I have no idea. I'm still feeling incredibly overwhelmed with a feeling of regret and self hate.
I hate it.
Uhm I'm not really gonna go in depth, mostly because I just realized that what I'm writing about in my blog posts aren't what blogs are for.
So I'm gonna go ahead and sum up my current emotional distraught in one sentence.
Herp.
And I just want to say sorry to everyone.
For whatever. I mean it.
There ya have it.
Perhaps if I ignore this long enough it will go away?
Its worked before.....
Anyway.
Since I'm using blogs for the wrong purposes, I guess I'm gonna stop for awhile.
Or until I actually find something to blog about.
Now I'll stop with the useless blog posts now :)
Mr. Wright Quote Of The Day: "Oh my Stephen! You're looking sexy today!" *Chuckles*
Ian Quote Of The Day: "See, I had to burn down the orphanage. It was attacking me!"
You get two since I'm not blogging for awhile! :D
Tool powers activate!
Off on a spiritual adventure/journey/quest to find..something.
I don't know what right now.
Chao:)
Monday, January 23, 2012
Its been awhile.... Let's kick this pig!
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Yep. I'm propaganding (propaganda-ing?) my video again.
It needs more views!
Or more people need to tell me how terrible it is.
Either way.
Yep. As the title explains it, I haven't blogged in awhile?
Why?
I don't know.
Didn't want to, had nothing to talk about (and if I did it would have been depressing), and yeah.
Let's just say i haven't had one good day this year yet.
I've had great moments with friends n such, but overall, this month has sucked.
Well. I haven't felt emotionally good for awhile now. Going on almost a month now, and I'm holding up. It's challenging, needless to say. The senior thesis doesn't help either. It makes it worse, actually. Worked on it today and hit a brick wall.
This isn't going to be a good week.
Or a good rest of the year.
Oh well. Time flies, hopefully it's supersonic.
Uhm, It's hard to blog about stuff when aren't emotionally all there. Its been more or less the same thing for the past month, so nothing really new. Eh, also so haven't found anything to fix it...so yep.
Anyway.
The highlight recently was that I got deleted as a friend by somebody on Facebook.
Hahaha.
This greatly amuses me.
Why?
Oh ya know, she said things like:
"I'll ask you to sadies! :D" I seriously laughed for a good ten minutes with that one.
"I love you!" ................... No ya dont.
And now I'm off of her friends list. I'm not hurt, amused, not hurt.
Mostly because I knew she was BS-ing me as soon as she said it, so it was only a matter of time before her lies came into light. Again, it was funny lolololololololololololololololol.
And that one chick (Maddie Derp, as Matt would call her), is gone. Hopefully for awhile, I don't want to see her again. So I guess that's a high point? :)
The one thing that killed me first semester is gone. Now to take care of second semester.
I figured it out.
I am inadvertently using my Blog as personal journal. Because I read all of my blogs, and read about how I was feeling back now, compared to now. It was kinda cool. Didn't find good things, but hey.
So, the moral of the story is: YOU CAN"T TRUST THE SYSTEM!
Nah,
But really. This blog post is more of a benefit for me as it is to your entertainment.
So keep your negative blog comments to yourself :)
I'm doin this for me :)
Unless the post isn't depressing.
Then its for you.
Hopefully we have one coming up.
Maybe I'll blog about something important.
Maybe....
What was my day like....
Mostly herp.
Then I was like derp.
Don't worry guys. I got this! :D
......
Hopefully?
Ian Quote Of The Day: "Do a Barrel Roll!"
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Yep. I'm propaganding (propaganda-ing?) my video again.
It needs more views!
Or more people need to tell me how terrible it is.
Either way.
Yep. As the title explains it, I haven't blogged in awhile?
Why?
I don't know.
Didn't want to, had nothing to talk about (and if I did it would have been depressing), and yeah.
Let's just say i haven't had one good day this year yet.
I've had great moments with friends n such, but overall, this month has sucked.
Well. I haven't felt emotionally good for awhile now. Going on almost a month now, and I'm holding up. It's challenging, needless to say. The senior thesis doesn't help either. It makes it worse, actually. Worked on it today and hit a brick wall.
This isn't going to be a good week.
Or a good rest of the year.
Oh well. Time flies, hopefully it's supersonic.
Uhm, It's hard to blog about stuff when aren't emotionally all there. Its been more or less the same thing for the past month, so nothing really new. Eh, also so haven't found anything to fix it...so yep.
Anyway.
The highlight recently was that I got deleted as a friend by somebody on Facebook.
Hahaha.
This greatly amuses me.
Why?
Oh ya know, she said things like:
"I'll ask you to sadies! :D" I seriously laughed for a good ten minutes with that one.
"I love you!" ................... No ya dont.
And now I'm off of her friends list. I'm not hurt, amused, not hurt.
Mostly because I knew she was BS-ing me as soon as she said it, so it was only a matter of time before her lies came into light. Again, it was funny lolololololololololololololololol.
And that one chick (Maddie Derp, as Matt would call her), is gone. Hopefully for awhile, I don't want to see her again. So I guess that's a high point? :)
The one thing that killed me first semester is gone. Now to take care of second semester.
I figured it out.
I am inadvertently using my Blog as personal journal. Because I read all of my blogs, and read about how I was feeling back now, compared to now. It was kinda cool. Didn't find good things, but hey.
So, the moral of the story is: YOU CAN"T TRUST THE SYSTEM!
Nah,
But really. This blog post is more of a benefit for me as it is to your entertainment.
So keep your negative blog comments to yourself :)
I'm doin this for me :)
Unless the post isn't depressing.
Then its for you.
Hopefully we have one coming up.
Maybe I'll blog about something important.
Maybe....
What was my day like....
Mostly herp.
Then I was like derp.
Don't worry guys. I got this! :D
......
Hopefully?
Ian Quote Of The Day: "Do a Barrel Roll!"
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
I'm running out of blog titles...
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Another one of my edited videos. Its the music video for The War by Angels & Airwaves! I'd love for you to check it out!
It only took me 7 tries to upload it :)
Well. I don't know what got people started on this. But everyone's been talking about the word "love."
So, I figured I would give it a go.
The first thing I wanna say first is that "love" is probably the most overused word. And the people who use it most is probably high school girls. All preppy n such. I'm not saying this group of people are the only ones, but in my experience, they probably use it the most.
There is this one preppy freshman girl I'm friends with on Facebook (Who will remain nameless). She tosses the word "love" around like its nothing. If she likes something she automatically loves it. I remember when she starting dating this one guy, and about 2 or 3 days later, she said she loved him. I saw this and burst out laughing. For one, she's a freshman. 14? Sounds right. Who "loves" her boyfriend after 2 days of dating him. LOL. She also "loves" everybody. If you are her friend, she loves you by default. I mean she has close friends, and then there's the generic acquaintance. It really bugs me how much she claims she loves things. I don't think she gets it yet.
But here I am, judging her. Like a pro. I'm good at it too! :D
I never thought about it, but the English language totally herped when it decided it only needed one word for love. We use it so often. To describe ANYTHING we really like. Other languages have multiple words for love, we get one.
And we get to decide what we mean when we say it.
Most of the time, we use it to describe something we adore.
Such as:
"Man, I love this song!" Or "I love pizza!" I honestly don't have a problem with it. I think its obviously we don't mean it when we tell someone "I love you." This definition of love is commonplace, and most people can understand what they really mean by it. So yep. Kinda obvious the meaning for it, and we use love because saying "I really like this song" doesn't flow as well. :P
Then there's the "I love you."
Its a confusing subject.
Saying that has many different meanings as well.
As a boyfriend/girlfriend.
As a close friend.
As a friend.
As a family member.
As a mentor/teacher.
As a fellow believer in Christ.
As God told us.
I love people. The only people I tell are my parents and close friends.
And God, obviously.
And I've said it to my girlfriend several times.
But I don't know. Saying "I love you" to anyone from the following list doesnt bother me. Until they start overusing it, like stated previously.
I'm going to use another example.
There was this girl. A sophomore. We were acquaintances, from my point of view. Its not that we weren't friends, but we weren't enemies. We didn't really talk, never hung out, or anything like that. So she was just kinda there, minding our own businesses, etc. Well my birthday swung around and she posted on my wall something like this:
"Happy Birthday!:) Text me sometime!:)"
So I did. I don't usually text people often anyway, and we haven't talked in months.
So I figured why not?
The next few months, we talked on and off, like 2 days straight, then stop for a week or two. Nothing too serious or anything.
Then she started stringing together some lies. Which irritated me, just as it would anyone.
How did I know they were lies? They were obvious.
The first one was when we were talking about homecoming, and sadies and junk.
"I'll ask you to sadies!:)" Is what she said.
When she said that I literally LOL'd. It was not even homecoming yet, so Setpemeber/October, and shes saying shes going to ask me to my school's dance, the same school that she doesn't attend. At first I was kinda happy. A date sounds fun right? I mean I've never had one to sadies before. Then I realized that she wasn't going to. She didn't say she wasn't going to, but I knew she wasn't. Before hand, we never hung out at all, and we've only been recently been talking. So I brushed it off as "boll crap."
What does this have to do with love?
Nothing. I needed to rant about it. It's not bothering me or anything, I just felt like it needed to be said.
And it also leads into love.
So. We keep talking. She was fun to talk to in all. Then one day I made a joke.
It was stupid. But it made her laugh. And she replied:
"Haha oh Ben, I love you!:)" (Obviously, I don't remember the texts word for word. They went something like this).
HA! Boll Sh**! I'm not stupid! That was my first reaction. I mean I didn't realize you could love someone whom you've never hung out with, and have only been talking to periodically for a few months.
Tell me when I'm wrong, but I don't think love works like that.
Luckily for me, I didn't believe it.
She told me that again, sometime later. I don't know why. After that last one we stopped talking again. I didn't want to if she was going to say that. No girl has ever said that to me, besides my girlfriend. I don't think she should have.
And love is an action mostly. We never hung out. So there ya have it.
Haven't talked to her since, and sadies is in 3 weeks.
This shall be fun.
I don't really know where I was going with that.
But I guess if I had to sum it up it would be this:
Don't overuse the word "love." Only say it when you absolutely mean it. I'll work on it too.
Don't toss it around like its nothing. Its a powerful word, don't underestimate it.
Ian Quote Of The Day-
Christy: "What's spooning?"
Ian: "Want me and Ben to demonstrate? Clear the table!"
Me: ":O"
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